I had a father who was my care-giver

But that role was meant for you.

I need a father for so many things

That should be coming from you.

Your shoulder was never offered for comfort,

You abandoned me, so I cried.

Your arms were never there to embrace,

You didn’t see the pain or felt the hurt inside.

I loved you but you didn’t love me back.

My eyes are red from the many tears I cried.

I prayed for you and hoped you were praying too.

I felt unloved. It left a void deep down inside.

My mind confused, not knowing what to do,

But these feelings haunt me:

‘Unwanted’ ‘Unloved’ ‘The outsider’ An ‘Outcast’ too.

‘Will you love or despise me?’

Through all the midnight tears I cried.

Father, where were you?

When I needed you to understand,

Father, where were you?

© J. S. Ramkissoon, 2009.

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As we approach that time of the year when we celebrate fatherhood, I think about the journey I have been on. It has been a painful journey and I am still struggling in some areas. However,I know that I have already overcome, its just a process that I am going through.

As I share the highs and lows of my journey, I pray that the poems and articles I share will help you get a little closer to your healing. God is able. He promised never to leave us nor forsake us and I am now able to look back in my life and see that He has fulfilled that promise to me. If you are a child struggling in a similar way, please embrace Psalm 27:10, it has helped me to come to acceptance and I pray it will be a blessing to you too.

If you are a parent who find that you have neglected your child intentionally or not, I hope that these poems will help you to understand the pain that a child travels with because of the void (the lack of parental love in their lives). Forgiveness is available to you. God doesn’t want us to stay in sin, so I pray that you’ll use this as an opportunity to make things right. God bless!

“When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up” (Psalm 27:10, KJV).

Source: FaithWriters.com

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